Sunday, July 11, 2010

Ignorance

8:50 PM kyeo.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Johnny Walker Black Label

11:18 PM kyeo.

Attention Christ exaltation and real truths ahead!

Wait, random thing first, go youtube 范曉萱 she's kinda a legend but gets little recognition. She somewhat cre8ed her own genre (yes exaggeration) in Chinese pop, like Jay or err... Jay Chou is just ownage. I'm not saying i like her songs or anything, she's just quite stunning.

So first, thesis statement, preface. God came as man to save man by dying on the cross so that our sins past present and future will be forgiven, so that the law of moses (ten commandments) will be fulfilled. This is the gospel, the good news. Because of this, we are free and God intends for us to live the abundant life with no condemnation of any evil we may do. And thats why we worship him, and we reign over sickness, disease and poverty. And hence rejoice in knowing that there's a God who cares. Religion may tell people that one must do good things and worship god, then he will reward you, and one must repent and ask for forgiveness and offer tributes to gain protection, wealth and ward off evil spirits. But then again if we are so good we do not need a god. My God says that he loves us so, and he wants to bless us even if we sin, we are broken, or we are lost. Just receive his love, his blessings and grace, by trusting him and believing in him.

Testimonies! So many i have heard in church. There are numerous on websites such as http://www.testimonyshare.com/, and http://www.shelovesgod.com/library/testimonies.cfm for ladies. Oh testimonies are like accounts of in this case lives being changed. (Is it just me cause i don't hear many good news from religions...) here's one:

God Spared My Life
February 15th, 2010
About 4 months ago me and a friend of mine along with 2 other people were attacked outside of a night club. The attacker was in possesion of a knife and stabbed a total of 5 people that night. I had gotten stabbed a total of 3 times, one in the liver, one in the lung, and the worst one of all that was a milimeter away from my heart, and had actually cut the sack surrounding the heart. The doctor actually said when he walked into my hospital room to see me after the surgery, that it was like seeing a ghost because i had been so close to dying.
I had always believed in God but had kind of turned my back on him and his word, and was living a dangerous life of partying and drugs. I was in the hospital for about a week and was dealing with the attack very negatively and had alot of built up anger. Then one morning for no explainable reason i broke down and started to cry prefusaly, the nurse had seen me crying and came over to me. Nurses are generally not suppose to preach to patients but this time the nurse closed my curtains and she told me that jesus loved me and that he is calling me. She handed me a bible and layed out scriptures that really struck me because of how closely related they were to what i was feeling and was dealing with. She began to sing to me and i closed my eyes. At that moment i felt something that i had never felt before, and she knew it. She told me that jesus was there and that him and the lord are running towards me and reaching out there love to me. This made me cry uncontrollably, and to this day i beleive that she was either an angel or a messenger of the lord.
After our encounter i felt as if my shoulders had released a million pounds off of them and i felt fantastic. Me and my mother had a chat right after that and i had told her about what happened and began crying again. I had some past secrets that i was keeping from her about the drugs and partying and i ended up confessing all of these things to her and i felt a love that i had never felt before, both from god and my family.
I still to this day have some problems and temptations but i now have no question whether god spared my life that night and the feeling that i had while she sang to me leaves no question to his pressence in my room. I thank god for saving me, and i know he truly loves all his children.
Prior to Christian denominations i got no dealings with that. We all worship Jesus, so who cares. Catholics, same issue, Jesus' name high. Atheists, dun care bout you too, believe wad you want, i go with Christ. In fact, why do Christians want to tell others about the gospel? Because we are enjoying his grace, very tangible in our lives, and we want YOU to do so too.

Just watched True Legend 酥乞丐 loads of action from start to end, okay storyline, reminded me of 叶问. Jay was quite hilarious lol (spoiler he was the best fighter in the show).

12:53 PM kyeo.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Utility

Yes it is that property in monopoly, the water works and electric coy thing. Yea but not many people know the true meaning about this word, and the weird thing is i got quite a problem with it (feel like beating it up and going river hongbao to scatter its ashes).

"the state or quality of being useful; usefulness" - dictionary.reference.com

Okay this becomes chim. It's like... I eat sweet durians because they make me happy as they taste good. Hence it is useful for me to do so cause when i'm happy i enjoy myself. In eonomics, utility is measured in monetary terms (my utility for the durian is forty pp). So are people all utilitarians? Do people do stuff that they think is best for them? Of course.

So is it selfish to do the things you think are best for yourself? Is helping someone selfish because you would want to increase your pool of friends? Is love selfish because it is to satisfy one's need for a sense of security and such?

I just slept with my cat even though is took up like half my bed and made me curl up, but i did it because it was sooo cute lol. I was happy to sleep beside my cat, and i enjoyed it. Was that selfish? I waited with my dad 2 hours for my mum and sis to cut their hair, but it would have been a bigger waste of time if they went on their own without dad fetching them.

Similarly I go to church at 7:30 although i slept late and needed more sleep due to overloading of outfields last week (crazy no 7h of rest no time for breakfast or lunch and chiong so much that... wait i just decided to fing elaborate on this more) so that I can worship God and receive from him because i want to. Actually many people do. It is what kick starts the week, the refreshing of the knowledge of being cared for, and the invaluable tangible blessing that i receive.

On the other hand training or practice has to be smart or else it would not be effective. Doing and redoing ie training hard is stupid. Learning math by doing many problems, but not understanding the proof of the formula, or why the formula holds true, does not do anyone good. Planning through before doing is crucial, it's better that just doing more. For example, "Today we're gonna learn how to build a car. We will have lots of practice so you can try and try and try till you're familiar and can do it as fast as possible." vs "Do this step then this step then... it's the fastest way to building a car. *does it twice or thrice and BAMM skill mastered level 25*"

I am maturing bits by bits and I think relationships are like that cat on my bed. Don't get me wrong, I mean I will enjoy her company as she does just as if I enjoy my cat's. Don't get me wrong again, gfs are not just cats. In fact I think i will have a greater time with the special friendship that we will create.

But that's just for later... still not time...

5:13 PM kyeo.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Away from society

Ya lo army has secluded us from mingling with the folks who frequent the city, heartlands and public transport has never been more interesting.

Recently in home news our beloved Ris is featured to advocate safe intercourse by being the cover girl of this brand of protective insulator. Haven't we always wondered wtf do we need that? Singapore is like one of the sanest places in the world... har... right...? ok maybe a few cases of casual and impulsive people, but seriously isit an issue? Probably a few ppl do it... i mean... do we even have the time to care bout it? Everyone's busy, nsk becoming smarter and more hardworking, stress level so high.

So i was going to lesson that evening, and behold this couple boards and talks reli loudly. Np with that... really... except that they are probably what primary 5? and they are like body contact galore? Call me a 井底之蛙 but i think this isn't sweet. I was like okay, cute, okay byebye. After my lesson, this other pair boarded and got seated behind me, and started talking cock, literally... wth i was tired and playing dynasty warriors and i had to listen to some small boy (btw this other couple was like j1 or sth, but they looked like sec 2, why did i think they were j1...) display his lust unto this poor girl. Not exactly an ideal book out night.

Anyway i wondered maybe i was cooped up in a conservative disciplined environment, because i did not know the vices of some of the people in Singapore. Heard in some other developed countries these were common but are we following their noob practices too? Speaking of noob practices... Anyway, the night wasn't done.

Yea i was seated in front of e girl and her deprived bf, and i was also seated behind this couple in their twenties (i remembered this so well because i was like caught between a healthy relationship and a i dunno wad) who were sweet, enjoying each other's company, like each other love i not sure, and want to get to know each other not purely for continuing the human race... Was training LU BU ownage cross pikes imba hero... couldn't really appreciate the game sounds due to the noise from behind. Its like God is teaching me something, and i can testify when God wants to tell me something he makes sure it gets through.

I certainly feel girls should not be so open man, stop feeding lar, stop chionging into a relationship. Treasure yourselves. Cos guys do.

Yup i guess we need En Bloc for Low Rise condo(m)s.

12:54 PM kyeo.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Twenty o Nine

Yay two zero one zero, but actually its just another day. Most of e army ppl just want time to pass faster. Many things happened in 2009, time for recap, then forcast.

Jan-IB results and BMT. Cant believe the year 5 ppl had better the results were better than my yr's. Maybe i shld have trained harder during last last december period so i can go ocs. haha but i'm happy wherever God puts me. I rmbed was like 38 pts happy le then suddenly everyone did better than expected. Ephemeral ecstasy.

Feb-Mar - BMT seemed quite bad now cos had to travel to pasir ris and take ferry and everyday got like training non-stop. The grenade live firing was the best la.
"You ok right?"
"Yes sir."
"You sure ah, just throw it straight..."
"Okay sir. np."
"ok ah"
"YA." *throws the grenade a tad far off target lol*
"eh sir that cant be good..." *booms*

Apr-May - Sispec is quite restful except for the field camps. Had hilarious yet uncanny field camps. One night, it was reported to be the heaviest downpour in years, so happened to be sleeping under it.
"eh buddy... i think its gonna rain..."
*waits for reply* "eh buddy... eh wake up lei"
IT WAS APOCALYPTIC.
Then there was the navigation cum field camp in which we were not suppose to walk on the path, but instead had to bash through vegetation. Yea it was in pairs. Somehow buddy and I found 2 other pairs, and rested right in the middle of a three way intersection (dunno whose stupid idea). OC and 2IC rode by in a rover and they were like wtf?! Then even better, we were like 100m from our final day check point and we just sat along the road of tekong's MAJOR (and only) highway (not much of a highway though). Same 2 ppl came along, and we had crawl.

Jun-Aug - SI haha rmbed it for e screwed up and inefficient planning. Nonetheless, learned much knowledge to be used this year.

Sept- Now - in unit life very family like (except for the first 2 weeks of torture in uip), until recently. Saying too much about NS, also dun wan to talk bout it.

Ya saying too much about NS. But life isnt only NS (i hope). Went to a few concerts, made new friends, learned more bout bgr and bout life. Learned more bout God and e bible. Still playing com, bowling and trying out new stuff haha (I dislike clubbing). Chionging driving. gg lo swearing more, thats gonna change... And of cos looking forward to ORD and regaining back lost time.

This year is ORD. Cant wait to experience elatedness like no one has ever seen. But more importantly, to try to waste less time (yes I've been saying that sleeping is not a waste of time). Am like in hibernation mode in there, faking happiness for every second that has passed. Still feel like a kid haha. I know wad worldly things i want to achieve this year, I will do my best.

But still trusting in the Lord to be my guide, my provider, my rest, my increase.

6:13 PM kyeo.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Speculations - a noob guess at the exams

These are only for subjects i take. Firstly, i would like to note that although i did not study much, mid-yrs would be DAMN HARD so as to try scare us. Lol bring it on man.
Maths
- Complex no - the one where they ask z = 8i
- Maths induction - the one where they ask to prove it is divisible
- Matrix - row reduction and singular matrix I, I^2, I^32 etc...
- Probability - nMN and binomial. Binomial convert to normal and...
- Lines and Planes - at least one which asks bout distance of point to line (point to foot), and of cause the axb thing to find area and angle of triangle.
- Binomial - find the coefficient of x^wadever, formula of nCr.
- Differentiation - high level questions of differentiating trigo expo log and also stuff like velocity and chain rule
- Integration - by parts, substitution, all hard integration ques
- Circular measure - not sure y it is a subject of conc camp but maybe something of that sort...
- P and C - sitting in a circle

Music
- Dido and Aeneas extract shld be from act III, cos maybe she wans to test how much we listened this year.
- Stereotypical question on DNA. Everyone, pls try to write "Purcell uses this with remarkable consistency" when talking about his use of keys.
- One Pop or jazz, one Reinaissance (shld be vocal), one traditional - probably Meditterranian or Maui.

Econs
- Tariffs will not come out, instead the arguments for protectionism may be asked in different ways such as isit good for developed countries to use trade barriers to limit exports from developing countries.
- Market structure question will be hard. I dun intend on doing.
- Market failure - maybe bout the costs of holding olympics in China.
- Inflation - oil prices - causes and ways our govt has helped curb it.
- BOP - current account and its link to FDI.
- Unemployment - nothing much. remember to include this when discussing the detrimental effects on wadever.
- Elasticities - they give 2 examples and ask wads the difference eg. luxury houses and HDB
- Distribution of income - same as unemployment
- Theory of firms - i dun think they will test like y MC cuts ACmin, but efficiency must remember for market structure.
- Comparative advantage - most likely in DRQ.
- National Income and Accounting - DRQ table which gives stuff like Real GDP growth, Unemployment level, Current Account, Consumer Price Index, external equilibrium, FDI etc...
- Evaluation is very important. In fact most questions would be like state the effects of wad...
- Policies - Fiscal Monetary, Supply side, Price and Wage control, Exchange rate.

Chemistry - Sl nia (haven studied much, bad guesses)
- Quite some stoichiometry questions
- at least 3 mcq on electrolysis
- one structure qn on the calculation of pH and the pKa thing.
- you noe wad... just do tys shld be ok.

English (yet again, bad guesses)
- Role of family/Absence of Family
- Something technical - The middle of the story is the most important. Discuss
- Self-developement is the most effective./ The setting influences the character more than he himself.
- Lol cant think of anything else. Do past yr qns.

Shld have typed this before the holidays started, dam now dam little time to study all. Bopian, still got world lit and Tok...

1:21 PM kyeo.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The one thing that i need to do

Finally, it has come to pass. Thank you Daddy God you're always there for me, although my faith flickers violently. Let this be another setback in my life, another one of those... It took 6 years, and finally it is done. Amen.

9:56 PM kyeo.